I think reality is starting to set in. This will be my very last semester of high school.
After this, I'll be separated from all my friends. So why not make new college friends? Because, as if college wasn't intimidating enough, I have to take my undeniable shyness into account. I'm not good at "fitting in." There's no way anyone will want to hang out with a weirdo like me.
After this, my boyfriend and I won't get to see each other much. I'll only be 30 minutes away, but he doesn't have a car. I know it could be much worse, but I'm used to seeing him nearly every day at school. And I absolutely hate long distance relationships. But I love him, and we both want to make it work. I just know it's not going to be easy for us.
After this...will be college, and I have no idea what to do with my life! I'm not like the other kids around here itching to get away from this small town and be out on their own. I like it here. It's simple and pleasant. And more importantly it's not new and scary. You should try to see me navigate a big city...oh wait, I won't even attempt it because I'm afraid of getting into another car accident...but if for some reason I DID attempt it, let me tell you, it would NOT be a pretty sight.
Honestly, I don't want to grow up! I'll miss my safe, secure childhood too much. I feel like I would never survive out there in the real world. Its probably true. I'd be like a blind salmon in a river of starving bears. I wouldn't last 5 seconds. Needless to say, I'm terrified...and I don't understand. I should be excited, and anxious to start my own life and further my education like everyone else.
But I'm not.
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once college comes, the students are actually a lot easier to talk to than in high school. no one cares about anything.Â
distance definitely tests the relationship. i wish you both luck on that :)